The Blog of vox

If you would ask ..

 

I would say..

 

 

 

"I've had many a thought of you this day."

 

 

 

You alone, the first person to make my Deepest pains feel small...

 

I must thank you.. 

 

That door so massive..

 

I

 

So small..

 

With every unpleasantry echoing my past,

 

...  seeping from behind..

 

 

 

Glairing canines gnashed,...  all to familiar..  sickly.. smiles..

 

Claws sinking in.. salivating... over     fresh  tears.

 

 

 

I

 

growing weary over the years... had succumb.

 

 

 

I could never have closed that door alone.

 

 

 

.....

 

 

 

If you'd only ask.. I would say...

 

You have left me.. hoping for the rest of my days..

 

That somehow, or some way, I could free your heart of that chain..

 

...hung knotted .. like a noose, ready to be set.

 

 

 

One could die trying..

 

 

 

Here i lay.

 

Ready to leave it all behind..

 

Happily.

 

.  .  .  . . ..

 

 

 

Here I lay.

 

Silence, my bride.

 

Whispering sweet nothings ..  as she holds me near.

 

 

 

Writing this letter,

 

..

 

 

 

All's come and gone now..

 

 

 

 

 

Wishing you were here.

 

 

 

 

I NEED A VACATION.

 

Ever since i started this business i have been sucked into a realm of complete overworked HELL getting it off the ground.

It has been worth it in many ways, but my F****** God.

I need a break, with a beach.

 

Jamaica I dream of You!!!!

This little viddy, casually touches on many a subject. Besides the obvious that the bush bloodline is evil incarnate,.. martial law/ police brutality, the rfid tracking chip technology, face recognition technology, the Real ID act, the North American Union, occult symbols in everyday advertising, the power of the idiot box, the skull and bones/ masons, retinal scanning....
I must explain these things, because believe it or not, some people still have no idea what is going on, where we are headed as a nation, or what they're really looking at when they see something like this.

How many Neocons does it take to disgrace a great nation?






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These shall speak for me tonight...

 

 

..


Merely May .. and already I've had enough of this year...

Cannot deny though, finally getting myself back on track has quite enticed me, for the remainder..



You sultry lover..

eternity.

What doest thou hold for me..?
Your bittersweet flavor, salted with the sands of time ..

Though your sensation blisters,
I can't seem to get enough.
Intoxicated you set me adrift,
with promises so lavish..

I have been ravished,
by the hands
of Father Tyme.
Everything i ever knew, you set free.. Broadened my mind, only to .. entrap

me.

Forever in your debt .
With this gift..

If I had only known what was inside thee.


Mirthfuly yours,

...


Vox.

 

 

!!!!!!!!!!11111111111111111111111111!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

 

 

Oh My Stars.

 

That made the remainder of my week.

 

 

 

VStV.

link: http://www..rmationclearinghouse../article19002.htm .."MARGIN: 0px 0px 12px">Extinguishing Liberty’s Light and Independent Views

Thinking for yourself is now a crime

By Paul Craig Roberts

What was the greatest failure of 2007? President Bush’s “surge” in Iraq? The decline in the value of the US dollar? Subprime mortgages? No. The greatest failure of 2007 was the newly sworn in Democratic Congress.

The American people’s attempt in November 2006 to rein in a rogue government, which has committed the US to costly military adventures while running roughshod over the US Constitution, failed. Replacing Republicans with Democrats in the House and Senate has made no difference.

The assault on the US Constitution by the Democratic Party is as determined as the assault by the Republicans. On October 23, 2007, the House passed a bill sponsored by California Democratic congresswoman Jane Harman, chairwoman of a Homeland Security subcommittee, that overturns the constitutionally guaranteed rights to free expression, association, and assembly.

The bill passed the House on a vote of 404-6. In the Senate the bill is sponsored by Maine Republican Susan Collins and apparently faces no meaningful opposition.

Harman’s bill is called the “Violent Radicalization and Homegrown Terrorism Prevention Act.” [ http://www.govtrack.us/congress/bill.xpd?bill=h110-1955 ] When HR 1955 becomes law, it will create a commission tasked with identifying extremist people, groups, and ideas. The commission will hold hearings around the country, taking testimony and compiling a list of dangerous people and beliefs. The bill will, in short, create massive terrorism in the United States. But the perpetrators of terrorism will not be Muslim terrorists; they will be government agents and fellow citizens.

We are beginning to see who will be the inmates of the detention centers being built in the US by Halliburton under government contract.

Who will be on the “extremist beliefs” list? The answer is: civil libertarians, critics of Israel, 9/11 skeptics, critics of the administration’s wars and foreign policies, critics of the administration’s use of kidnapping, rendition, torture and violation of the Geneva Conventions, and critics of the administration’s spying on Americans. Anyone in the way of a powerful interest group--such as environmentalists opposing politically connected developers--is also a candidate for the list.

The “Extremist Beliefs Commission” is the mechanism for identifying Americans who pose “a threat to domestic security” and a threat of “homegrown terrorism” that “cannot be easily prevented through traditional federal intelligence or law enforcement efforts.”

This bill is a boon for nasty people. That SOB who stole your girlfriend, that hussy who stole your boyfriend, the gun owner next door--just report them to Homeland Security as holders of extreme beliefs. Homeland Security needs suspects, so they are not going to check. Under the new regime, accusation is evidence. Moreover, “our” elected representatives will never admit that they voted for a bill and created an “Extremist Belief Commission” for which there is neither need nor constitutional basis.

That boss who harasses you for coming late to work--he’s a good candidate to be reported; so is that minority employee that you can’t fire for any normal reason. So is the husband of that good-looking woman you have been unable to seduce. Every kind of quarrel and jealousy can now be settled with a phone call to Homeland Security.

Soon Halliburton will be building more detention centers.

Americans are so far removed from the roots of their liberty that they just don’t get it. Most Americans don’t know what habeas corpus is or why it is important to them. But they know what they want, and Jane Harman has given them a new way to settle scores and to advance their own interests.

Even educated liberals believe that the US Constitution is a “living document” that can be changed to mean whatever it needs to mean in order to accommodate some new important cause, such as abortion and legal privileges for minorities and the handicapped. Today it is the “war on terror” that the Constitution must accommodate. Tomorrow it can be the war on whomever or whatever.

Think about it. More than six years ago the World Trade Center and Pentagon were attacked. The US government blamed it on al Qaeda. Scant evidence has been presented. The 9/11 Commission Report has been subjected to devastating criticism by a large number of qualified people--including the commission’s chairman and co-chairman. http://www.nytimes.com/2008/01/02/opinion/02kean.html?_r=1&th&emc=th&oref=slogin

Since 9/11 there have been no terrorist attacks in the US. The FBI has tried to orchestrate a few, but the “terrorist plots” never got beyond talk organized and led by FBI agents. There are no visible extremist groups other than the neoconservatives that control the government in Washington. But somehow the House of Representatives overwhelmingly sees a need to create a commission to take testimony and search out extremist views (outside of Washington, of course).

This search for extremist views comes after President Bush and the Justice (sic) Department declare that the President can ignore habeas corpus, ignore the Geneva Conventions, seize people without evidence, hold them indefinitely without presenting charges, torture them until they confess to some made up crime, and take over the government by declaring an emergency. Of course, none of these “patriotic” views are extremist.

The search for extremist views follows also the granting of contracts to Halliburton to build detention centers in the US. No member of Congress or the executive branch ever explained the need for the detention centers or who the detainees would be. Of course, there is nothing extremist about building detention centers in the US for undisclosed inmates.

Clearly the detention centers are not meant to just stand there empty. Thanks to 2007’s greatest failure--the Democratic Congress--there is to be an “Extremist Beliefs Commission” to secure inmates for Bush’s detention centers.

President Bush promises us that the wars he has launched will cause the “untamed fire of freedom” to “reach the darkest corners of our world.” Meanwhile in America the fire of freedom has not only been tamed but also is being extinguished.

The light of liberty has gone out in the United States.

Christian Psychosis

DOOORRRK SIIIIDDEDD !!!!!!!!! :O

LOL.

K

I'm done.

Absinthe is Legal in the US
Federal Ban Lifted for Sale and Imports
Source
© Lisbeth Cheever-Gessaman

Dec 6, 2007
After nearly a century, absinthe is legalized in the United States once again.

The Green Fairy. La Fee Verte. The Emerald Muse.

These are but a few of the sobriquets given to the worlds most controversial drink - Absinthe. Beloved by mystics, visionaries and artists alike, absinthe was initally banned in 1905 after a demonizing campaign for its prohibition; and now after nearly a hundred years, the United States has indeed lifted the ban on its sale.

No, really.

The first two absinthes to be allowed in the US market were Lucid and Kubler, each utilizing the more historical formula of high alcohol content (typically 128 proof or more) and low amounts of thujone.

The thujone in absinthe, initially at the heart of its eventual downfall, remains a controversial aspect. Thujone, a considerably potent toxin, is one of the key properties of wormwood and lethal in high doses. However distillers such as Lucid have spent painstaking hours analyzing the content of bottles of historical absinthe.

The conclusion?

That thujone itself was present only in the smallest amounts and that it's the combination of Wormwood along with other herbs such as hyssop and calamus which create the drink's notable characteristic of mystically lucid clarity. After much legal wrangling demonstrating this data to the FDA, the government overturned the ban with set stipulations that the thujone would remain at a low 10 parts per million.

Absinthe comes at a price - nearly $75.00 a bottle and up at the time of this writing. However, it's an amazing piece of history which the more bohemian among us are passionately celebrating.

For such an incredibly historical and dare I say, exciting event, news coverage is surprisingly scant. A sampling of media links however can be found here:

NY Times Coverage

Lakota Indians Withdraw Treaties Signed With U.S. 150 Years Ago





Thursday, December 20, 2007





Source







WASHINGTON — The Lakota Indians, who gave the world legendary warriors Sitting Bull and Crazy Horse, have withdrawn from treaties with the United States.











"We are no longer citizens of the United States of America and all those who live in the five-state area that encompasses our country are free to join us,'' long-time Indian rights activist Russell Means said.









A delegation of Lakota leaders has delivered a message to the State Department, and said they were unilaterally withdrawing from treaties they signed with the federal government of the U.S., some of them more than 150 years old.









The group also visited the Bolivian, Chilean, South African and Venezuelan embassies, and would continue on their diplomatic mission and take it overseas in the coming weeks and months.









Lakota country includes parts of the states of Nebraska, South Dakota, North Dakota, Montana and Wyoming.











The new country would issue its own passports and driving licences, and living there would be tax-free - provided residents renounce their U.S. citizenship, Mr Means said.









The treaties signed with the U.S. were merely "worthless words on worthless paper," the Lakota freedom activists said.













Withdrawing from the treaties was entirely legal, Means said.









"This is according to the laws of the United States, specifically article six of the constitution,'' which states that treaties are the supreme law of the land, he said.









"It is also within the laws on treaties passed at the Vienna Convention and put into effect by the US and the rest of the international community in 1980. We are legally within our rights to be free and independent,'' said Means.









The Lakota relaunched their journey to freedom in 1974, when they drafted a declaration of continuing independence — an overt play on the title of the United States' Declaration of Independence from England.









Thirty-three years have elapsed since then because "it takes critical mass to combat colonialism and we wanted to make sure that all our ducks were in a row,'' Means said.











One duck moved into place in September, when the United Nations adopted a non-binding declaration on the rights of indigenous peoples — despite opposition from the United States, which said it clashed with its own laws.









"We have 33 treaties with the United States that they have not lived by. They continue to take our land, our water, our children,'' Phyllis Young, who helped organize the first international conference on indigenous rights in Geneva in 1977, told the news conference.









The U.S. "annexation'' of native American land has resulted in once proud tribes such as the Lakota becoming mere "facsimiles of white people,'' said Means.









Oppression at the hands of the U.S. government has taken its toll on the Lakota, whose men have one of the shortest life expectancies - less than 44 years - in the world.









Lakota teen suicides are 150 per cent above the norm for the U.S.; infant mortality is five times higher than the U.S. average; and unemployment is rife, according to the Lakota freedom movement's website.

These little things..








remind me of you...

VStV

MER DU JAPON *** Sexy Boi --;-@

Art sometimes becomes so obscure, in becoming everything, it becomes nothing at all.



Obtuse. Unquestionable.



Nothing is something. Since the beginning of death for all of us,  We perceive our thoughts as what we are programmed to.



Break the chain.



Become a link.

EP just crashed my firefox.









.

Everything I post, a glitch in EP post's twice, so i have to go back and delete a copy.



Sometimes it will even send letters  to people whom I've wrote, twice.

Or I will spend a ridiculous amount of time composing something, and EP will eat it, or part of it... POOF! It's just vanished.



Many a letter has not been sent for lack of desire to rewrite my compositions...





It's poopy.







V.

Et c'est comment vous me faites le sentir. Donnez-moi l'amour et la mort lacés avec la quintessence de la vie.







 Forever and Anon...





 Votre amoureux,









V.

Amanda palmer is gorgeous....





Hope you are enjoying this as much as i am.



:Vox:

I love this place..

 

In retrospect..

 

 Despite all in my life that could go wrong, has gone wrong, and probably Will continue to go wrong..



I am blessed and grateful.





Soo  sooo  ..very grateful.





:Vox:

So this is what I've been dealing with for the past two weeks, letter starts at bottom, and continues up...



********

Yea I know all that sounded harsh, my feelings are still sharp towards it and knowing that, I knew there would be no chance

of making up for real on one of the days you'd have here, if i didn't get it all out there to begin with. I am closer than you may think to understanding why you need an apology. I am not in your head and you are not in mine.

That letter was hard to write, hard to read, but most of all hard to send, though I'm glad i did, and glad you sent yours I know it was hard for you too.

I appreciate it.

I actually cried writing it just from digging up the memories.

Anyway.



Just so you know I never blamed you for the whole sun stroke thing, I really blamed myself for that too, because well what kind of dumbass doesn't know their own medication right? -Someone who hasn't met up with NY' depleted ozone layer recently, that's who..heheh

i understood how that would be hard to believe and would sound like an excuse or a cop out.



Also no I wasn't being honest with you about the money, because my parents weren't being honest with me. So here

I was telling you that it was coming, when to my knowledge it was, then it just never came, then came the "I Never said I would send you that money" crap later on -from the parents -after I was stuck at a homeless shelter, and fuming at them over the phone.

- After our fight, the dad freaked out and didn't trust me and he asked me to leave.



We had spoke of where to go next to get out of the sepanski's house since you couldn't handle it there, and you told me that you could stay with your friend, i can't remember his name, but he was black and had dreads. He however could only take one person. I do remember you being so angry that you were yelling about what horrible people they were in their house. i felt like it was disrespectful of the service they had done for us. Albeit as uncomfortable as it was, it was still better than a crack motel, or a homeless shelter.. I mean, right? Anyway, that's what i thought.



I wanted you to go blow off steam somewhere else, take a walk or something, i did not want to be separated from you, and was not trying to throw you out, on the streets alone. I know what that's like, do you think i could have wished that on either of our lives again after everything we'd already been through? I can understand why you took it that way though, "You Need To Go" in the midst of yelling can sound like "Get the fuck out, i never want to see you again". I never thought you'd take it that way, or knew you've felt that way all this time. But honestly I felt it escalating between the two of us, and i didn't want to snap and have it get really ugly in their home. I still don't remember you apologizing, or begging forgiveness about that at all.

I'm not some cruel cunt, how could i ignore something like that, and dismiss it? I couldn't, and didn't, I hate that you see it that way.

I took you getting your stuff and leaving, as you being pissed at me for telling you how to handle your anger in that situation, and deducing that you didn't need me around anyway. At that point the way you were acting towards me made me feel like my friendship wasn't worth much to you, plus i didn't have the money we needed anymore, you didn't like the only thing i could have provided at the time (our place with the sepanski's),you thought i was lying to you, and I was sick, all in all I saw you as seeing me as dead weight, that needed to be cut away.



With my understanding that you had a place with your dreddy friend, it seemed reasonable that you leave with your stuff not to return. If i had thought you didn't actually have a place to stay, do you think i would have let you out the door with all your stuff? No. I never fucked you before like that, and that was not my intention there.

I'm sorry that i came off that way to you,- that i wanted you gone from my life, really i just wanted you to go blow off steam somewhere else like i said, I didn't want to get violent with you.

"You need to go now" or "leave now" are my words for "You need to get out of my face or I'm going to hit you." - thanks to anger management classes. Knowing my history i thought you were understanding what i was saying to that specific degree. Thinking you understood, I Thought i comprehended why you left, under the full understanding that you wanted to leave that hell hole anyway.



Speaking with Bobby on the phone he had already heard through pat/ chris/ hayse/ ezra/// that you moved right in with the dreddy guy, i heard nothing about a crack motel, it was the same story when i got back and talked to everyone and they told me that you were talking all this crap about me, and how i just couldn't cut it in NY etc., and that you got in a fight with the dreddy guy, and ended up living with linnea at some point. Even Tod confirmed all that.

Were you telling them that, or were they just lying to me?



I do agree that our memories are bias. It is hard to tell tones when speaking through email. that's why i went out of the way to disclaim it to begin with. No when I started writing i wasn't ready to reconcile, I openly admit that. but i figured hey, maybe if we can really get down to the points that need to be addressed, I can be ready. At that point if i were to just go and say yea let's meet up, there would have been no way i could get this all out completely, and civilly, within our confined time frame, not only that but it would be shitty to spend that bit of time you have in denver, going through this necessary tit for tat-ing over all this that could be gotten out of the way now.



Actually now i do remember what apology you are talking about, and it was before we blew up totally at each other, it was about my sunburn/heatstroke etc. I thought you meant you apologized for yelling and and accusing me of being dishonest, and pretty much a backstabber.

I forgave you, and like i said before , didn't even really blame you for not believing me at first. I was just hurt that you thought i was bullshitting you.



I didn't accept what came after with all the money issues coming between a friendship. that's what's kept me away this whole time. At least you had money to go on. I had 400$ all of which i owed you. You somehow managed to stay through it as hard as it was, and live out your dream of graduating from Pratt, moving on and making something of yourself in that beautiful city. Candidly, I won't lie I envy you that. To this day i hate it here, though there have been many reasons for my staying.

What stuck with me was "You did this on purpose, how could you do this to me!?" and some other things along the lines of - i refuse to pull your weight, etc.. I would never do something like that to someone i cared about, nor expect that of them.

That was the apology I was hoping for. and needless to say i understand why you feel the need for an apology too.



I'm sorry it's sounds self righteous but I'm not ashamed of how I feel, and not much for pussyfooting or sarcasm, so I'm trying to get it out as kindly as I am able, so if possible we both can move on. I don't know what you expected.



I'm willing to admit my fault, and have in these letters already. If you can possibly see my p.o.v., here and know that it is the truth in my mind, then I'm sure we can work things out. i understand what is true for you, from what you've said, and I am willing to apologize for what you feel has been done to you.



My number is 7**********, and you are welcome to call as well.

You will be busy while you're here I'm sure, so call me at your leisure, or whatever I'll call you, it' doesn't really matter as long as it gets done. I figure we might want to go somewhere neutral and private.

I would like to put this behind us, and for us do whatever we have to do to make that happen now, lest we leave it to fester in both our hearts again.

So tell me what you think..

Prism











----------------- Original Message -----------------

From: biodidact

Date: Oct 8, 2007 10:59 AM





in that huge blowup fight we had (which began as i had pushed you too hard in the sun) you asked me repeatedly to leave that house immediately. I apologized right then and there. It was the only time I apologized and i did so profusely saying that I'd not realized that your medication would leave you so fatigued and vulnerable to the sun and then on top of everything suddenly your finances were just MIA and i was just way freaked out. -i couldn't stay in that house with that angry fighting family and everything i was doing to speed up a departure was angering/upsetting you.

in short WE did fight. in the end you stuck to your guns saying that i needed to leave that house -immediately. i vividly remember saying don't do this. i am totally alone, with all this luggage -its not like i can squat, where will i go? i begged for your forgiveness. when you continued unrelenting i did say that if you did this you would be forfeiting our friendship and i meant it. I am pretty offended at the statement that i just stormed the door and you never saw me again?! as if you had no part at all in any of that!? yeah! i just took off to throw down ALL of my startup savings in some junkie filled motel. that was great! that allowed me to move into the worst neighborhood i could find and only one i could afford where i got repeatedly jumped and mugged! it was great.

i doubt you'll ever know how thoroughly fucked i was or how far that impacted my life here.

With concerns towards your finances I didn't mean that you were trying to fuck me over just that your finances suddenly changed and you didn't seem to be all that honest with me about them. That i couldn't afford to be in limbo & I'd be fucked for rent if we didn't get a place fucking soon. As i remember you called me a trust-fund baby insinuating that i had all this money to go to college and that i was just spoiled and couldn't understand the situation.

I did tell you that you needed to pay me that money immediately -because i was suddenly homeless and fucked.



listen. its clear that both of our accounts are heavily biased. i don't feel that the tone of your letter is the reconciliatory at all if anything its self-righteous and antagonistic. did you do anything here or was it just all me?! cause i can admit that i got upset and mean in that situation -i also know that i came to my senses and tried to stop you from kicking me out.

I don't "possess a much more pleasant view of this" i am attempting a reconciliation because i realized that you never would. I have waited 6 years for an apology from you and can see that you are nowhere near being able to give one. I have also realized that this rift in my past and in our friendship has far reaching (farther than our present) repercussions as to the people we both allow ourselves to be.

if after reading this you'd like to admit some part in this and um you know contact me -my number is 6************ i don't really think that we can hash this out on a phone but if you'd like to set up a meeting during my visit I'm down. if not; then I've tried, and i am fully willing to admit my wrong doing just as soon as your willing to come forward and do the same.



aO



----------------- Original Message -----------------

From: VoxyStVon

Date: Oct 8, 2007 12:18 AM







Hello Panda, this will be lengthy on my part I'm sure.

( Just a warning )

Regardless of how this may sound, it Is nice to hear from you.



Well, hearing from you is quite a shock I must say.

Here I need to state that I've never received an apology from you, Believe me I would have remembered That. Most likely you would have heard from me earlier if that were the case. In fact the last words i recall us speaking to each other were You accusing me of knowing my parents were going to screw me over, not sending me the money we needed to help us out. Therefore "I" was trying to fuck you over and you just weren't going to have that.

Also stating that i needed to pay you the two hundred some odd dollars i owed you by the end of the week or you would start up with interest. At some point towards the end with you storming out, you asked " So your forfeiting our friendship?" , i don't recall sparking any notion of that nature. In fact at that point I was devastated at what you were accusing me of, and the lack of trust you had in me. Out of astonishment, pain and resign,